wa... i m tired.. i just keep this post short... i need my slp for tml morning shift waking up at 5am!!

alright.. i'm sianz coz i have not seen any collapse case yet.. SIAN.
i saw facture case.. alot alot..
today gt a case.. come in for drug overdose.. sorry to say that but i feel its abit loser lo.. coz she overdose herself... but the effect is too terrible for her to bare.. so she called ambulance herself... anyway.. she went into unconsicous state when she reach A&E..
just a gentle reminder.. ppl that really want to commit suicide.. u won't die from drug overdose if ppl can find ur location soon.
oki.. i don't have the mood to blog..
updates tml...

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11:20 PM

mm... now i wonder..
should i specialise in NICU or A&E... mmm....

first time after 3 mths i put on my nursing uniform again... mm.. 'bai yi tian shi' hoho... this time round i'm being posted to A&E.. well.... its the first day of work today.. so.. u can expect that A&E is wa.. super lot of patient.. nurses and doctors are super busy.. and a bunch of student nurses completely lost.
kao~ i was thinking.. haha.. year 3 liao.. can yaya abit.. but guess wad? when we reach there.. there are advance diploma student there.. which mean.. they are more pro... which mean.. we are like nothing again.. roarrr... but thank god.. i was not in the same team with them which mean.. i dont need to work with them.. hee...
anyway.. by the end of the day i was fitting myself quite well there.. really seems like a nurse nurse liao.. no one the spoon feed us... mm....
oh ya.. i came across this case today.. u guys decide if this guy is stupid or is he just trying to act dumb.. he tried to lift up a 300kg crate ( obviously he din succeed) he came in with open fracture which means its a fracture with open wound bleeding.. and he had fractured his spine too.. and it is quite bad.. in fact very bad coz he is paralyse.. forever.. see tell me is he stupid or is he trying to act dumb..
oh yaya.. i was quite stun with one of the case i took in triage today.. tho it is just a minor runny nose, cough n on off fever.. but wait.. u know which country this patient just came back from.. HONG KONG!!!! mm......
alright end of report.. ^^ A&E interesting right.....

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11:14 PM

ARGH~~~~~
my attachment starting tml.. i'm currently having a mix feeling.. i'm looking forwar to it yet don't feel like going... hai~ confuse. why my boy boy no license?? nobody ferry me to work n back to work.. hai~ ming ku ar!! lol* ( i'm joking baby)

aiya.. today.. as usual... wake up at 1pm.. mm... i tot it is still early when i wake up.. hee* met up with andrew for lunch.. had laska.. mm.. i tink the next time i eat laska should be next yr ma.. coz laska is not realli my type of food.. oh... i played swing today... FUN! haha... i just love playing swing.. coz it is just like swinging away all ur trouble.. not referring tat i have problem now..
looking forward to coming thurs... haha.. my mom is going taiwan... muahaha....

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12:28 AM

24hrs to go...

hai.... i din go airport.. nor east coast.. neither did i eat durain.. the onli thing i have done today.. cook spaggi for baby.. n NUAR... rooaarrr..... my holiday is ending... i DON'T WANT!!!! it means i have to wake up as early as 5 everyday and drag my feet to take SBS bus no. 5 which takes me like 30 to 45 mins to reach CHANGI GENERAL HOSPITAL..
well.. i think my co ordinator just dont like me [people just dont like my face] i have no idea WHY?! the reason why i said that [ i have to relate to 3yrs back]

lx: hi miss doris.. may i change my posting from CGH to TTSH.. coz it is realli near to my house.. probably take me 10 MINS by foot..

miss doris: NO!! if all the student come to me becoz of this reason.. then how i am going to allocate..

wad the?! then in the first place why bother to ask us to fill up the form to see which hospital is nearer.. hai~
i have to keep my cool.. coz anyway i have to bear with it for juz another 4 more mths.. ya 4more mths
you could say that i m a person that hold gurdge.. u could onli understand how i feel when u are in my situation..

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12:44 AM

mm.. everything is over.. [suddenly went blank in my mind.. don't know what to blog]
ok...
i went to watch a movie yesterday with andrew, trac and his fren.. mm.. i don't like the movie.. suppose to be a comedy.. well.. it is a comedy.. but it don't have much laughing point in it.. so ppl.. if u really wan to head for a big laugh i won't recommend this..
next..
The orphanage... wow... wow.. wow... i tink its a pretty good movie.. coz i feel tat it is super scary can comparing with other horror movie... and the ending is quite sad.. anyway.. andrew gt shock too... mostly by me.. haha.. esp. one part ***** i tink i will save the detail.. juz in case anyone of u is watching.. but ppl who are interested to know the interesting part can pm me.. heh..

unbelievable... i have nuar at home for the past 3wks going 4... WOW... i can be the nuar-ing queen.. but i kind of feel that it is quite a waste.. haiz~ attachment is coming.. sad.. there goes my freedom... so for the next 48hrs before my attachment start.. this are the places i wan to go n do..

• East Coast
• eat durain [yum yum]
• go airport
• a... tidy my room
• cook spaggi for my baby..
• mm... lastly.. NUAR!!!!

oh.. anyway.. i went to kallang leisure park.. went to the new cinema.. ee.. i don't like.. popcorn sux.. drink not nice.. service is bad.. seat is not comfortable.. i won't visit tht cinema again... i tink i m still a GV fan.. muahahaha...

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1:16 AM

You are The Moon

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Moon is a card of magic and mystery - when prominent you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window.

The Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if you have any past mental problems, you must be vigilant in taking your medication but avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. You can and should trust your intuition.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

*lol same as suet leh...

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11:18 PM

Muahahaha...
Today there is 3 tai tai [s] having dim sum at ps de crsytal jade.. suet yuer and me.. kao* i tink we ordered too much.. 2 chang fen.. 2 har gau.. 1 carrot cake.. 1 siew mai.. 1 century egg w meat porridge.. and we each have a glass of barley/soya milk and many many glasses of ice water.. but everything is finish.. yum yum**

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10:41 PM

Mm... i feel much better after the visit to the church..
*tink* may lord enlighten me.. ^^
answer all my prayer PLEASE.. i promise i will be a good girl..


I bought mashed potato for sn n yuer.. mm.. but sn din have the 'kou fu' coz she din come DBG..[ i buy for u again the next time] Oh.. i went terminal 3 with yvonne.. well.. i'm wondering... are singaporean that bored or is singapore too small.. coz around 12 plus 1.. wow.. terminal 3 is full SINGAPOREAN having lunch.. [nothing better to do] haiz~

YYEEEAAA......... lunch with yu er and suet tml.... ^__________^ hohoho~

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1:26 AM

My boy,
I'm glad that i've found you among all people. It's becoz of you that make me feel unique with all your love and you treat me just like a little princess.

I know that at times u got angry with me but you will always give in to me bcoz i'm ur little princess. I love those times when you would whisper those sweet words in my ears and i know you really mean it..

please, will you stay with me till the end?

your girl.

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1:25 AM

mm... i have enjoyed mysel lota today.. just feel like back in the past.. its has been so loonnggg since the 3 of us met up.. i missed the secondary school life [part with yuer n suet] they meant ALOT to me.. ^____^ the laughter n sorrow everything we had.. but well.. we have grown up.. all busy with our own life.. well.. its pretty sad.. but its life..


thanks suet for helping me on the blogskin.. i m super noob... lol..

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1:00 AM

I have decided to convert myself to a christian.
people might asked me y i come up with this decision..
i dont know..................
emotionally feeling better when i thought of god.
[ i know what i have just said might not make any sense] ha. its oki.. as long as i understand myself.


*i think i m going crazy soon..
how i wish all this is just a bad dream.. which i will forget everything when i wake up the next day.. i wish..

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1:39 AM

Dear mummy,



I am in heaven now, sitting on jesus's lap. He love me and cries with me, for my heart has been broken. I so wanted to be your little girl.

I don't quite understnad what has hapen. i was so exicted when i began realising my existance. i was in a dark yet comfortable place. I saw i had fingers & toes. i was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surrounding. I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping.

Even from my earliest days, i felt a special boning between you and me sometimes i heard you crying and i cried with you sometimes you would yell and scream then cry. i heard daddy yelling back. i was sad,and hope you would be better soon i wondered why you cried so much.

One day you cried almost all the day i hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy. That same day, the most horrible thinghappened. A very mean monster came ino that warm, comfortable place i was in. i was so scared, i began screaming,but you never once tried to help me. Maybe you never heard me. The monster get closer and closer as i was screaming, "mummy, mummy, help me please mummy, help me."

Complete terror is all i felt. i screamed and screamed until i thought i couldn't anymore. Then the monster started ripping my arm off. It hurt sp bad, the pain i can never expalin. It didn't stop. OH, how i begged it to stop. I screamed in horror asit ripped off my leg. Though i was in such complete pain, i was dying. i knew would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me.

I wanted to make your tears go away, i had so many plans to make you happy. Now, i couldn't, all y dreams are shattered. Thoug i was in utter pain nd horror, i felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all. i wanted more than anything to be your daughter. no use now, for i was dying a painful death. i could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you.

I wanted to tell you that i love you before i was gone, but i didn't know the words you could understand.and sonn, i no longer had the breath to say them, i was dead. i felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a bi beautiful place. i was still crying but the physical pain was gone.

The angel took me to jesus and set me on His lap. He said he loved me, and He was my father. then i was happy. I asked Him what the thing was that killed me. He answered" Abortion. I m sorry, my child, for i know how it feels." i don't know what abortion is: i guess that's the name of the monster.

I'm writting to say that i love you and tell you hw much i wanted to be your little gal. i tried very hard to live. i wanted to live, i have the will but i couldn't, the monster was too powerful. It suck my arms and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to love i just wanted you to know i tried to stay with you. i didn't want todie.

Also, mummy please watch out for that abortion monster.Mummy, i love you and i would hate for you to go through the kind of pain. please be careful.



Love,

you baby

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10:40 AM